Have you ever had one of those decisions to make? The type of decision that will yield results that can undoubtedly change your life. Then again aren't those the only decisions worth making in the first place. It's just hard to do something that while may be in your best interest at the same time may alter the way those whom have supported you since day one perceive you. Then again those who truly support me will be there no matter what. Of course they will, they'll be glad to see me take things to the next level. Everybody will be thrilled to see the guy who at one time was the best big man nobody knew about, make it to the grandest stage of them all. I'm sure they'll understand, I mean how couldn't they?
Are you kidding me? Do you honestly think that these fans will give two craps about you when you step away from them? They will turn on you the second you step in the ring for the enemy. What are you thinking? Money huh? So that's what this is about, you are leaving for money yet are gonna have the nerve to get pissed when people chant "you sold out." Why are you really getting mad though? Is it perhaps because their words ring true? You hate to be called a sell out but at the same time you have no problems with actually selling out. That just seems so hypocritical of you.
Hypocritical of me? Surely you aren't serious. I'm a hypocrite because I don't want to end up like the countless number of guys who wrestled a similar style as me and now can barely walk. I got an offer from the WWE, and you are damn right I'm going to take it. I guarantee that I won't have to take a barb wire bat to the shoulder or get slammed on thumbtacks to get over. Hell with them gearing towards a more PG rated program not only will this be the chance for me to protect the longevity of my career but it will also give me the chance to truly show other sides of my wrestling trade. I don't want to lose any of my long time fans but at the same time this opportunity will give me a chance to reach out to new fans as well as my old ones, if they can't accept that then maybe they weren't really fans of mine to begin with.
Weren't really your fans huh? Guess you are right, they enjoyed blowing their hard earned paycheck for no particular reason. You can try and justify it all you want but did it ever occur to you that maybe this is your fault. You might hate the hardcore lifestyle and the way in which it eventually shortens your career, but whose idea was it to go that route? You could have said no at any point, and while it may have hurt your career at the time at least you would have had your morals; the same morals you seem to be trying so desperately to throw back into the face of all your fans at the moment. You can call it barbaric all you want but it was your willingness to so easily spill your own blood that has ultimately made your fans clamor for it. You could have just as easily been another big man wrestler, but maybe deep down you knew you were just that; "another big man wrestler." Shedding blood and mutilating your body was your way of trying to stand out. You should be ashamed at how blindly you tend to follow orders.
So now I should be ashamed to be a model employee, sure that makes sense. I try to build the type of working relationship where I can viewed as the guy who can be trusted to do exactly what is asked of him. In a time where every punk kid out there is trying to make a name for themselves as being a rebel, I like to think as myself as a "go to" type of guy. I'm not a ring technician but I'm a hell of a worker and a hell of a listener so if someone feels that me shedding blood is what is best for my character than so be it. I mean who am I to argue? I'm dealing with people who have spent a lifetime in this business and I trust their judgment and advice.
I'm sorry but I find it simply hilarious that you are so concerned over being a model employee, especially if your destination is the WWE. After all didn't they give a ten year contract and the WWE title to a guy who shits in female employees' bags? Don't worry about answering that one because I already know it. They even went as far as to fire someone whose girlfriend cheated on him, but best of all they pushed his best friend (the cheater) to the moon. Goes to show you just how far having a high moral standard will get you in this business. People with your ethics just trampled on a daily basis in this field so don't expect any special treatment.
My decision has already been made, I don't even know why I need to justify myself to you. I'm ready for the next step in my development and most of all I'm ready to prove my naysayers wrong. Maybe on a subconscious level, the jokes about me being a poorman's hybrid of Mankind and Kane are still fresh in the back of my mind. I want to prove that I'm something more than just some freak show in a mask. Plus like it or not, to make it in this sport in this day and age you have to eventually pass through the WWE.
Fine, so you want to make a name for yourself, I can respect that. One problem though, have you actually thought back to how hard it is to make a name for yourself in this business. For years you've been "Abyss" this masked monster but then you'll go to WWE and simply be Chris Parks, just a fat guy with tattoos and a bunch of scars. Even for a company that has a hard on for the big guys that's going to be a hard sell. Maybe you know something I don't, or maybe you haven't really put as much though into it as you claim to have. I guess there's no reason you should listen to me now though, since when have I ever come through for you.
The Last Day
So this is it, my last day in Florida before I report to my new "home." It's going to be hard not being around these guys but if I don't at least try and make it I'll always have this feeling of regret. A feeling of "what if", and that's just not something I'm willing to deal with. Hopefully today goes smooth though since I get to put over Joe on the way out. They really want him to do a number on me to put over this whole "Nation of Violence" thing but I don't mind. Joe is a professional and lord knows I'm more than apt at taking a beating. Should be a easy finish and a fitting way for me to say my goodbyes.
So Abyss is leaving us tonight, and I'm in charge of packing his bags for him. I really don't know what to feel, on one hand I'm happy for the guy but on the other maybe I'm a bit jealous. I can sit here and say I don't want to go and turn down offers all day but who am I really fooling? Then again maybe I'm a little pissed off. WWE may be the big boys in town now but that doesn't mean that I want them to flourish, the people behind that organization have lost touch with reality so much it's not even funny. Guess that's what happens when you become a monopoly in the business though. WWE is the place that I'm supposed to want to go and on paper it looks so good but in the long run where would I fit in? Screw that, I want to be apart of an organization that changes things for the better. Maybe we aren't there right now but I'm not prepared to give up just yet.
No DQ? Are you fucking kidding me? Great memories or not, I'll be so glad when I can take this mask off. I want so desperately to finally break away from the blood and scars that have become a staple in my act for so long now. I'm not a one dimensional star and I'm ready to prove that to everybody. I guess this is management's last laugh at my expense. Put me in a match where they know I'll get worked over real good, especially knowing how I feel about things at the moment. I'm sure they'll pull all the stops out tonight. I can only imagine what tricks they have in store for me, but maybe it's best that I don't.
I talked to Chris and he knows that management wants a show out there and we aren't going to spare any object to do it with. He knows he's going to have to bleed buckets on this one and he's ready to do his job. You got to admire the guy, he's all business not matter what the cost. By the sound of things it looks like we are going with the old Austin/Hart ending on this one, so I know we'll send the people home happy. I just hope we can say the same about Chris when this thing is all said and done. At least he didn't burn the bridge, then again it almost seems like they want to make an example out of him tonight for leaving. I can't help but feel sorry for him.
So the bell has rung and this crazy journey is about to come to an end here, just as I expected the fans are letting me have it but those are the breaks. I just want to get through this match, get washed up and head to Connecticut to start sorting about my new life. Joe is keeping his blows a little stiff it seems, just like I figured he would. Of course, there's my bag of trademark goodies; I wonder what it is that I'll be punished with tonight. Glass, it shouldn't have even been unclear and I should have a blast picking this crap out of my skin tonight. Here we go, our closing spot; at least I'm going to pass out rather than tap out. Just like that, I guess this is the start of a new chapter for me. Nice to see one final show of respect as the crowd chants "Thank you Chris."
I can't believe the crowd would chant you souled out. This guy put himself through so much just to entertain these people and this is the thanks that he gets? How did he sell out? He wants to better himself and move away from being the "monster" that participates in hardcore bouts so he's moving away from a federation that has typecast him in that way. If anything he should be applauded. If only they knew that sometimes I wanted to leave too. I guess that makes me the sell out though, at least Chris moved on and tried to better himself while I'm just staying put and pretending my situation is getting better. "Thank you Chris" at least they showed some class at the end. Then again maybe it's me who should be saying it.
The New Beginning
I got to admit it feels good to finally arrive here. I'm so nervous, and I can't really understand why. I guess because this will be the first time I get to meet Vince and that in itself is considered by plenty as a honor. Not everybody is awarded that privilege so early on and I definitely take such a thing as a huge compliment. Still, it's going to be hard to keep my composure in front of someone who is a living legend in this business. Love him or hate him you can't do nothing but respect what he's accomplished. Now is my chance to make him see that I have so much more to offer than just your typical big man "monster" character.
Chris right? Have a seat. I just want to go over some things with you and discuss some future plans and get your thoughts. I've seen a good deal of your work in the past and I have to say that I'm impressed with what I've seen. That much should be somewhat obvious though, as why else would I ask you here. As a big man, you are very agile and that's something I like to see. It's rare to see someone of your build move around like that. I definitely can see you playing a major role in our company and very possibly having the opportunity to move into a top position. Of course there are a few things we'll need to work on and we'll need to work on a way to repackage you and there are a couple of concerns I'd like to mention.
Oh, of course. That's why I'm here Mr. McMahon, I know that the guys that pass through these hallways are the best of the best and you need to come here to truly make it. So I think I'm ready to take myself to the next level. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to excel at the top of this business and make an impact in the biggest company there is. There have been some true legends that have come through these doors and I'd like to be able to hopefully include my name on that list. I have faith in the direction you guys take me in and I'm more than ready to start fresh with you guys.
That's good to hear. One of my main concerns is with the nature of some of your matches. You see we have decided to go in a more family friendly, PG oriented program. Therefore the heavy blood flow and matches of a hardcore nature really aren't things we are wishing to pursue. I'd also like to say that while we respect your experience we tend to work a different style in the ring than other companies. That being said I'd like to send you down to Florida to get better acquainted with the way in which we work so you'll have a better idea of how we like to present our matches. Luckily I know you are familiar to the area so you shouldn't have any trouble getting situated. After you get used to how we do things, we'll start working on getting you brought up to one of our main rosters. Any questions?
No Vince, it all sounds good and believe it or not I'm actually very happy about getting to work a new style, one that doesn't involve me getting stitches. I'd just like to say that I'm grateful for the opportunity.
Welcome aboard then. I look forward to tracking your progress and working with you in the future. Thank you Chris, and I'll be in touch.
As always I am Dr. Monkey, and you've just seen the world through my eyes.
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